An outstanding friend of mine has done the hard work of self-reflection and self-betterment and come out the other side a High Value Woman who knows what's what. That does not mean however that she's now an expert in relationships. Even after we decide to change our pattern, we can find ourselves slipping back into the routine of accepting bad behavior when we start dating again.
She recently recognized that a new budding relationship was not serving her but was instead a repeat of mistakes and lessons already learned. She stood up for herself and said, "THE END." Still, even though it was her choice she hoped he would have said more, fought for her a little bit or given her some closure. Instead... radio silence. We're learning to accept this as the new norm of bad behavior from men, but closure remains important for women. I challenged her to stop thinking about the email/text she wanted to send to him, and instead write a letter from her to her promising to do a better job protecting her next time. Since the breakup she's revisited this letter every day and her strength has been worthy of awe and a book deal.
Looks like we should add this to our standard protocol when hopes are dashed and another one bites the dust. If they go radio silent or if it ends and we continue to hear from them, there is still nothing to say to them that will make the situation better. In fact, by contacting them you risk your pride and your feelings (as they often lash out). Is there nothing left to be said? Oh, there's a lot to be said, but you need to say it and you need to hear it.
The following is the letter generously shared by my friend. Note that names have been changed to protect privacy. The ex is known as the Selfish Bastard, my friend has named her past self as Karen and her present and stronger self Conseula (more on this technique later).
Dear Karen,
I know you are sad and hurt by the break-up with the Selfish Bastard. The most important thing to remember is that you did nothing wrong; you were being authentic, open, vulnerable, and loving to a person who wasn't willing or even ABLE to give you the same in return. It is hard to face the reality that you have to move on, but embrace it. The worry and anxiety you've been going through with him will now come to an end, and you can focus on yourself. By accepting the facts, and living your life for YOU, the right person will be able to come into your life and give you the love you deserve.
What you need to work on is following your intuition. When a man says he isn't ready, or is clearly emotionally unavailable, BELIEVE HIM. It will not change. You cannot "fix" anyone else, nor do you want to repeat this shit again. It has been painful enough. You are done trying to create order in some one's life that is a fucking mess. And the Selfish Bastard is a fucking mess. Only he can do the work to make himself a better person, and he clearly isn't even trying to do that. Walking away with your dignity in tact is the best and only option; you finally did it yesterday.
Don't worry if he is going to call, text, email, etc. You do not need any other information from him. He told you that he is okay with you dating other people, that he is still online, and he has been "seeing you too much". WTF? What more do you need? Nothing. This man does not want you, deserve you, or respect you. Why do you care what he is doing or thinking? Don't. He doesn't deserve one more second of your time. If he does try to contact you, remember it is for his own selfish reasons, not because he actually cares about you. If he did care about you, he would have never treated you the way that he did. He only cares about himself. So don't answer and don't even think for a second that contacting him will change anything. It won't .
Remember the lessons you have learned. If a man doesn't meet your checklist, he never will. He won't meet your needs and if your needs aren't met, you will never really be happy. You deserve to be happy because you are a good person. You need to remember that you are a loving person that gives and gives and gives. It is time to give to yourself. DO NOT SETTLE. I repeat, DO NOT SETTLE. Take care of your heart. Life is too short to be with the wrong person, constantly spinning, feeling insecure, and losing yourself. Don't be fooled into thinking that you can fix anyone or wait it out long enough for them to rise up to your expectations. It will never work. See the red flags, accept them, and move on to the next.
Please stay strong and focus on yourself. It is not worth losing your self-respect or dignity to go back to this man. It is not allowed. He is out of your life. The universe has sent you a thousand signs that he is not the man for you. Believe the signs, know the truth, carry your head high, and start living the life you deserve.
All my love,
Consuela
What would you say to yourself right now? Go ahead. Write it.
